ok in April of last year I started to go back to Church after being away for a lot of years. I went though a period of time that was like a cleansing for me. For like 3 months I could not walk into that church without feeling like I was going to cry. I was so raw. In a good way though.
So one day they had people coming up for prayer at the end of the service. I dont even remeber what the sermon was about or what the alter call was for. I went up and just let go of everything. On my knees, bawling my eyes out. I could not even stand up. People prayed over me and God was just right there with me. When I was done I sat back down in my seat and just watched every one else. It was amazing. meanwhile I was still shaking and actually could barely stand up. I was exhausted and my body was just overwhelmed. That was a turning point for me. That was me giving up the last of the yuck that I had been hanging onto.
And this description does it no justice at all. But you kow, its hard to put into words :)
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Date: 2007-02-15 02:48 pm (UTC)ok in April of last year I started to go back to Church after being away for a lot of years. I went though a period of time that was like a cleansing for me. For like 3 months I could not walk into that church without feeling like I was going to cry. I was so raw. In a good way though.
So one day they had people coming up for prayer at the end of the service. I dont even remeber what the sermon was about or what the alter call was for. I went up and just let go of everything. On my knees, bawling my eyes out. I could not even stand up. People prayed over me and God was just right there with me. When I was done I sat back down in my seat and just watched every one else. It was amazing. meanwhile I was still shaking and actually could barely stand up. I was exhausted and my body was just overwhelmed. That was a turning point for me. That was me giving up the last of the yuck that I had been hanging onto.
And this description does it no justice at all. But you kow, its hard to put into words :)